thinking.... it always causes problems

Ok so, I apologize for the lack of posts, but seriously life has taken over and wedding has been back-burnered (1. idk if I spelled that right, 2. I back-burner so many things that I must have the largest industrial stove ever created!).

Josh's Grandfather passed away on Thursday night, and while I am not going to say much about it, because it is not my place to blog about someones family, it was a reminder that in the end all that matters is family. Without that you have nothing and no one.

I also have started to face the reality of the fact that in a little over a year (15 months) I will be moving farther from my friends and family than I have ever been before. It is going to be such a sudden and dramatic change that I am a little terrified at the thought of it. I say that I will be able to come back to Indy whenever I want to see everyone, but as it is I hardly get to go out, I can't imagine how seldom it will happen once I start my "real" adult life.

Makes me think about all the women in the "olden" days that moved far away from the people they knew and did not have the advantages or technology to keep in touch that I do; It could be worse.

I have decided to forgo the impending drama and wait until September to sit down and figure out the bridal party. With a brother meeting with recruiters and possibly enlisting, unsteady friendships, and family members out of the country I simply can't even try to figure it out right now. Waiting is no big deal since any decisions regarding the bridal party won't take place until closer to.

Meanwhile..... I have started collection antique chandelier crystals to use on some of my centerpieces. Anyone helping is going to hate me when they have to help sting up a million of them, but it will be really neat. Of course I have this weird eBay addiction where I feel like I am getting a "gift" every time something comes in the mail. Unfortunately for something to be considered a gift, I think someone other than myself must pay for it!

Well I have made some very slow progress in my weight loss. As of today (despite pigging out all weekend) I have lost 9lbs! But since I have about 16 more to go this is just so darn hard! I just keep wondering why it even got as out of control as it did in the first place. I have never been so angry with myself! grrrr. Oh well, maybe doing it the hard way will teach me my lesson and this won't happen again (other than when I am preggers, at which point I anticipate becoming a 5'1" whale!)

Speaking of preggers..... I have got the baby fever! (No baby yet, and not for a while, admit it you were scared for a second). I have wanted to be a mom since I was a toddler, and I really don't anticipate anything in my life ever bringing me as much frustration or pride as having a child, but I need to wait. I want our kid to have every advantage, including parents that are ready (if there is such a thing).

So to recap this incredibly long post:
1. Value your family, they're all you've got
2. I am embracing the location change, slowly
3. Choosing bridesmaids is harder than you think!
4. eBay= not so free gifts
5. Put the cookie down, seriously not worth the challenge of weight loss
6. Baby fever can be cured with the reality that I am not ready to be a mom

I am off to look at my new bridal magazine.... I really should just get subscriptions because this $7 per magazine is quickly adding up! Adios!!

PS... my lovely mother just came in and informed me she pretty much got me the deal of the century for a dj! I mean we're talking like 1/10th of the cost of the average dj! I am pumped!